I am grateful

I watched the world carefully today, and my focus came into view. When I ponder the reasons why my life has come to this point, I usually sit back, take a very deep breath and wonder why…..Why did things turn out the way they did? Why must I suffer through a horrible illness? Why haven’t I won the lottery yet? Probably because I don’t play! On a serious note, “why” is such a powerful motivator of thought, but usually not action. The life lessons I was presented with today were clear, and presented themselves with such concise precision that it was simply impossible for me to ignore them. Rather than ask myself “why”, maybe the question should be “why not”. Anything can happen to anyone at any time. The reality of any situation is finding the lesson behind it. At this point, why or why not, no longer matter because the definition of our existence becomes evident. We are born to live, we are born to learn and we are born to love. Everything else is just filler, or the fluff that holds time together in a continuous manner. Life is like a finely woven fabric, with one stitch and weave holding on to the next, and the next and so on. Sometimes we can get lost in life’s weave, not clearly seeing where the next link goes. Worse yet, if this finely woven fabric tears, we become disrupted and forget the entire reason for the fabric that our lives consist of. Today I was blessed by an amazing beautiful human being, a Llama. As he blessed me, he looked directly into my eyes, and as I gazed back into his eyes, I saw peace, I saw joy, I saw the fabric of humanity and life once again. Where I was lost in a torn thread within my own life, I found continuity once again. He did not seem overly concerned over the simple matter of life and death, but more so in the matter of life. His joyful expression and peaceful demeanor reminded me that life is about being present, and being in the here and now. I am humbled by this blessing, and I am grateful. I am reminded to be grateful for my “now”, and not to worry about the “why and why not” in life. I was blessed today in so many ways, in friendships, in family, in humanity, in my warm home on a cold autumn night, in the food I have to nourish my body, in the medicine I have to help me live, in my faith, in my love and in being loved. From the outside looking in, it looks like a life well lived, and today, from the inside looking out I can say that it is. <3

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